Dreams and Visions from the Lord, my God.

The Holy Bible: The WORD of God

2012-01-03T10:27:00.000-08:00

"Clouds and darkness are round about Him." Psalm 97:2

"Jesus said: "The words that I speak unto you," not the words I have spoken, "they are spirit, and they are life." The Bible has been so many words to us--clouds and darkness--then all of a sudden the words become spirit and life because Jesus re-speaks them to us in a particular condition. That is the way God speaks to us, not by visions and dreams, but by words. When a man gets to God it is by the most simple way of words."
~Oswald Chambers

This is the importance of knowing, living, and breathing Holy scripture.

It is the by knowing the WORD of God and having relationship with Jesus Christ, that we are given a filter, a discerner, through which we must put through and process/clean out, all of our thoughts, emotions, our innermost self and will...as well as all of our 'dreams' and 'visions.' They must be IN LINE with the WORD of God and His character, or they must be thrown out and burned entirely.

Power and Authority

2011-11-16T09:54:00.000-08:00

PLEASE check this video out if you have a chance, of John Paul Jackson talking about a dream he had about the church and the confusion it has with Power and Authority. This is a big stumbling block for many Christians, (I believe not only those IN the church hungry for power and authority, but for those OUT of the church who are isolated on their own because they were not given the power and authority they wanted), and it needs to be repented of. I pray for a FRESH release of authority, of the Spirit of God, and NOT of man's flesh, so that, we would not be a hinderance to the Holy Spirit.

Wow...this is an actual area the Lord has been working out within me this past season. The word 'authority' has kept coming up to me in my walk this past year, that the Lord is prompting me to step out with Him in. However, my 'flesh' has at times stumbled in this arena by trying to DO it for God (believing that's what the Lord wanted me to do) and instead...it came out as 'fleshy' power, NOT God's Holy presence within me. I've repented, and I'm getting back up again, wiping my knees off, and grabbing back onto His hand as He continues to grow me in this realm.

I pray you do to....that is, NOT give up. And trust Him where he leads you in your walk with Him.

Here is the link, Table Talk - Power and Authority - AweTV with John Paul Jackson

*Also noted, I picked up on John Paul Jackson using the terminology "a spokesman of the Lord, an angel I believe," speaking to him in his dreams. I'm going to pray about this and see how the Lord would have me write my dreams and speak about them. As when I've heard an actual voice speaking to me in my dreams describing what's happening audibly, I've always assumed it was the Lord...and it is...but it is most probably His Spirit, coming through a 'spokesman/angel/Holy Spirit' speaking to me, rather than His actual audible voice.

Interpretations

2011-11-12T11:45:00.000-08:00

Hello! I've added a new Interpretations 'page' at the top of this blog, and thought I would use it as a post to talk to you personally more about when and where my dreams started, why we have them, and what God wants us to do with them.

Love you much, Rebecca :)

I'm sure many of you are wondering where I get my interpretations of dreams and how this all started. Well, to be honest with you, this has been a continual learning adventure as I've walked alongside my Father.

The first time I knew a dream was from the Lord, was when I couldn't shake it. It kept replaying in my mind the next day, and then weeks, and months, until I started to ask Him about it.

In my beginning walk as a Christian, I struggled with sin...for years. I wouldn't release it's grip on me. That's right, 'I' wouldn't release it.

And I'd be under guilt and condemnation for most of my beginning relationship with the Lord (not knowing that condemnation came from the enemy, and not my Lord...as His is SWEET conviction that leads to a truly repentent heart that would CHOOSE to refuse sin). But, thankfully, the Lord, by His grace and mercy, chose not to allow me to be under this deception of lies, and started speaking to me and revealing things to me about my personal life and struggles, and WHERE the roots of deception were coming from, that were holding on to me. Strong holds.

By His revealing the plans of the enemy to me in my life, I was introduced to the 'war' we are in...the constant battle over our souls, and that the enemy 'would deceive even God's elect' if he could. That moment of awakening in my Christian walk...was my first step into spiritual warfare that I was finally aware of. I had no idea what 'spiritual warfare' was at the time, but found myself in constant battle of dreams in those beginning years with demons flying at me constantly throughout the night.

The Lord showed me 'how' to battle through prayer. I'm still learning.

But back to the premise of these dreams. The dreams revealed my areas of bondage, that allowed me to pray through them, to ask the Lord to help in these 'specifics,' and over the years, to become truly FREE from them.

So, first of all, if you're having dreams or visions that you feel the Lord is trying to tell you something about(whether it's for your past (needed healing, needed repentance, needed revelation of roots), present (direction to take, revelation of your current relationship with Christ, processing), or future (preparation of things to come, warnings, prayer for))....ask Him. As HE is the revealer and interpreter of ALL things...as He created ALL things, and He, by His grace, mercy, and LOVE for us, will speak directly to your spirit about them.

Along the years, I've come across some useful sources from other Christians with these specific giftings, and I've used them at times to see if they helped in giving a clearer understanding. At times, they do. At others, they don't. So I take what resounds with the Holy Spirit in me, and toss out what doesn't...make sure you are always asking the Lord to filter anything you are reading or taking in as TRUTH. Even from fellow Christian brothers and sisters words and giftings (regardless of their position in the church), as there are wolves among the flock... as Acts 20:29 mentions, "I know that false teachers, like vicious wolves, will come in among you after I leave, not sparing the flock."

On another note...make sure YOU aren't just tossing away prayers/words, etc., from another fellow believer because they don't resound with YOUR FLESH. Always receive humbly and with a heart ready to respond and receive, and allow the Lord to filter truth to you, through His WORD and through His SPIRIT in you.

The resources I've come across over the past couple of yrs that I use at times to come alongside my interpretations are;

1.) John Paul Jackson's at www.streamsministries.com and,

2.) Ed Traut's at www.propheticlife.com

I've chosen to use these sources because the interpretations they use are biblically derived.

WARNING: Do not use interpretations from things of this world, including people, other religions, and human thought. In the prophetic gifting realm (especially this generation), you must be on high alert and sensitive to anything New Aged based. I only emphasise this religion in particular, as this is the most current religion within our generation that I've seen even followers of Christ get entangled amongst, as they step out into more things of the Holy Spirit (being led by the Spirit, discerning, attempting to interpret dreams and visions in these End Times). Because New Age is highly focused on things of the spirit (the enemy once again, coming alongside of God, and trying to 'BE LIKE GOD' by copying these giftings), many Christians have stumbled in discerning truth in this arena. There IS most probably spirit in all other religions-it's just not God's Holy Spirit. Therefor the spirit received outside of God's, is the enemies and demonic...full of deception and lies. So always be on alert, and make sure any interpretation is in line with God's Holy Word & His character, which is the Word of God, the Bible.

1 Corinthians 12
Spiritual Gifts

Now, dear brothers and sisters, regarding your question about the special abilities the Spirit gives us. I don’t want you to misunderstand this. You know that when you were still pagans, you were led astray and swept along in worshiping speechless idols. So I want you to know that no one speaking by the Spirit of God will curse Jesus, and no one can say Jesus is Lord, except by the Holy Spirit.

There are different kinds of spiritual gifts, but the same Spirit is the source of them all. There are different kinds of service, but we serve the same Lord. God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us.

A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other. To one person the Spirit gives the ability to give wise advice; to another the same Spirit gives a message of special knowledge. The same Spirit gives great faith to another, and to someone else the one Spirit gives the gift of healing. He gives one person the power to perform miracles, and another the ability to prophesy. He gives someone else the ability to discern whether a message is from the Spirit of God or from another spirit. Still another person is given the ability to speak in unknown languages, while another is given the ability to interpret what is being said. It is the one and only Spirit who distributes all these gifts. He alone decides which gift each person should have.

End of Days, Deceptions

2011-11-11T16:26:00.001-08:00

PREFACE: I had this dream on New Year's Eve night, 2004, the next day waking into New Year's Day, 2005. The names have been changed, so as to not misguide the reader into becoming caught up in specific people (as those in this particular dream just represented fellow Christians in my life at that time), but to rather understand that God uses ALL of His children...FOR His glory. This was the first dream I ever had that was 'corporate.' Although there are parts in this dream that are specifically for me (my feelings/fears/weaknesses revealed), the essence of this dream was ALSO corporate and is beneficial for the entire Body of Christ, especially those in these End Days.

Theme: The underlying theme of the dream is a call for ALL Christians to be made aware NOT to slumber...but to be watchful, alert, and BATTLING at ALL times, regardless of our stations in life, so as NOT to be deceived. How do we do this? KNOWING the LIVING Word of God (The Holy Bible) and using it, Worshipping our Father in Heaven, and Praying without ceasing (praying throughout our days and nights (even while dreaming when He brings you there) as the Lord prompts it).

DREAM:

Part 1: The dream started off with me facing a group of demons that were coming towards me. I started off by rebuking them in the 'name of Jesus' over and over, whereas they would turn away for a short while and keep their distance but would return soon after. More and more started coming and there were too many for me to deal with on my own so I started to run for help. I was running in a gray concrete apartment complex with many levels whose doors all faced an inner court yard. I was on a higher level, not sure which, with a railing on it. I stopped at a door and knocked while the demons were behind me. "Jane" from church opened the door and immediately assessed the situation without me even saying a word and started rebuking them with specific scripture ,with force, but calmly and almost nonchalantly, as if not fazed by this situation. As she was doing this, the Lord was revealing to me that, "His Word, and knowledge of, was the stronger weapon that I needed, opposed to just rebuking." I then started to speak scripture I knew, and some, that I can't even recall or know that I even knew (completely spirit led). We continued to walk around and speak while others from the church joined in like the "Smith's"("Kathy" specifically with her baby in her arms) and so on. I didn't see any of these people other than Jane. I just knew that their presence was there with us. I also was aware of other presences from the church with us, although no names or faces, just a group.

Part 2: The next scene was inside of a luxurious resort type of place with many rooms, levels, and stairs. Almost labrynth like in nature because there were no railings to keep you from falling onto the floors and levels of rooms and stairs below or above you. I couldn't help but notice how beautiful the place was and how much decoration there was. On almost all the tables, dressors, cabinets. etc., there were pieces of fine art, antiques, sculptures, florage, etc. I was taken in by it all. I also noticed openings to the outside, although I never looked outside and saw it, I just knew because of the soft breeze and warm sunshine that was streaming in from all over. Like a resort that is covered and opened to the outside.

While I was taking this all in I noticed that all of us (the church members) were still in the middle of a battle with these demons. One thing in particular I noticed, was how these demons almost looked like everyday people, but extremely gorgeous and 'super model' like in nature. (this specific detail stuck out to me, because all my dreams prior with demons were always grotesque.) However, they still had a 'vampire-like' nature that told you different. I believe there were both male and female demons, but I did notice more of a female presence.

While we were speaking scripture to them, (and now personal praises glorifying God) I noticed a large vase-like container(3-4ft high) with large pieces of wood(6-7ft tall) in them with the sharp points all facing down in the vase. They looked like over-sized splinters with unfinished wood on the outside, dark chocolate brown in color with a blunt sawed off end on the top side. I immediately grabbed one of them out without even knowing what I was going to do with it and jabbed it into the heart of one of the female demons. She had long flowing hair and was wearing bright colors, maybe heavy jewerly around her neck. As I did this, I had quit speaking scripture and was now in physical contact and moving at a rapid speed. All of us then started using these splinter things to battle with. We never swung, only pierced hearts and then ultimately.... faces. I started to freak out when I first pierced a face because it felt like I had lost control or stepped down to their level. Like I was fighting out of my own fear and flesh and had forgotten that it was only God's Words and prayers that would work, when God revealed to me that, "this was what His Holy scripture was doing to them in reality," not me.

Part 3: The third scene was a glimpse of a food court in a mall. Nothing specific from the surroundings were shown, other than the average american mall food court that seems to be universal. Within the view of the mass of crowded people sitting down eating and walking about, was an instant view of a 'nerdy' white man in his 30-40's with a balding head... skinny, bottle-capped glasses, wearing a white short sleeved business shirt and black tie, eating food by himself. We (the church group fighting) stopped because of this transport to another realm and watched the scene that took place. (It was like a 'vision' we were watching, we weren't in the food court with them).

As this man was eating his food a gorgeous, slinky-looking woman in a long red dress and dark hair sat down in front of him with her body slouched over the table towards him, with her legs crossed, playing with/twirling her necklace. We couldn't hear what was being said by her, but she was obviously flattering the man and laughing with him because he was blushing and smiling. We as a group, knew thet something was suspicious with this picture (first-off, because she didn't fit the image of the food court, it was almost as if no one else in the mall was aware of her because either there were too many people around or because she wasn't really there, only to this man).

At that moment, the Lord revealed to us that, "that was the devil himself in human form on the earth." We were all shocked and kind of taken back that it was a woman. Not only that, but that he, the devil, was taking on that specific role on earth, rather than using a demon to do the work. We were all in a somewhat state of shock watching, and wondering why he (the devil) would place himself, in our view, in a somewhat vulnerable position. In answer to our comments and concerns, God at that moment then said that, "He is recruiting his army." We were still shocked because we were thinking his 'army' were his demons, not human beings on earth. We were all feeling a sense of urgency at that moment. As soon as God said that, the picture vanished, and we were back fighting in the 'resort place'.

Part 4: As we continued to fight, (note: the fighting was individual from the beginning as soon as we entered the resort the first time, I didn't see others fight, only out of the corner of my eye I knew they were), a hush kind of fell and in walked the devil himself wearing all black garb, pants, top, covered all except his hands and head. He was very good-looking with a little longer than shoulder length, slightly curled, flowing black hair that flew behind him as he entered the place that the battle was taking place in. I was immediatly seized with a since of fear (not sure what the others were feeling), that this battle was too big for me and maybe I needed to run when the Lord told me that, "this was what it is all about and to not fear because death can't take me from Him." I was kind of crying and shouted out to God that ,"Ok, it would be an honor to die for you Lord this way even though I can't do much for you!" And in my eyes, I comically picked up the gigantic splinter and yelled at the top of my lungs running full force toward the devil ready to spear him. As soon as I took on this stance and had spoken those words to God, I was now fighting both the devel and the demons with no fear of death (we all were) while instantly covering our back, I didn't see, but felt the presence of angels protecting us and fighting from behind on all sides of the areas we could not see.

As the battle lingered on throughout the night (my night dreaming), we found that the devil was a shrewd fighter, and we would tend to lose place of him, like the resort we were in was kind of his own. He knew where to hide. At times he would fight us, at others he would laugh and joke with us and say, "hold on a second, we need to move this dressor over to the other room so we will have more room and not bump into things." We started to help him move things over, while our group tended to disburse and go get a drink of water, etc., taking a break in other words. It was rather as if we were little kids 'play fighting' and 'taking a break' for cookies, forgetting that we were indeed, enemies. He kept asking questions about us personally, like he cared, and in order not to 'be rude' we would answer. Things like the weather, etc. to distract us. After a while, we were almost in a daze thinking and feeling things like, "we look like idiots fighting! He's not that bad!" Then, we'd realize the deception and continue the fight.(Also, the group had dwindled down a bit in size by the last fighting scene).

Part 5: It felt like a long period of time had passed and we had all had enough practice and learning that we now fought like "Lord of the Rings" characters. We could now fly, we had speed, and our weapons were all unique and special. I remember mine was like a long thin silver metallic spear that I could throw at amazing speed and accuracy while I flew at the same time without fear. As I was throwing my spear and following it to see where it went, I left the resort place and found myself hovering above a large courtyard that was identical to the "Harry Potter" school castle/courtyard, etc. I looked down and noticed large lines of children between the ages of approx. 10-14yrs, not sure if they all were, but for the most part. They were marching in lines wearing black robes with hoods and were practicing their weapons, sorcery, magic, etc. I remember them being interested in my spear and were taunting me to see what it could do, as they wanted to show-off their magic they could do. I was wondering who they were and what they were doing when the Lord revealed to me that, "this was the Devil's army who were preparing for their own war like we were." Then I woke up.

INTERPRETATION: Many things in this dream are made clear by God's direction and voice within it. However, there are other things to point out.

Key Point: Our knowledge/memorization of, the Word of God (the Bible & scripture within) IS our weapon. It is powerful, and as revealed by the dream, it is the best weapon we could possibly have. That, and the praise and worship of our God, as the dream reveals we Christians did during our battling of the enemy.

Part 1 Interpretation: Spiritual warfare is more than just 'rebuking' in the name of Jesus. Whereas there IS power in this, and ALL spirits, whether good or evil, WILL obey and respond to the power in the name of Jesus, it's just that, the POWER, whose authority flows through us as Christians BY the blood of Christ Himself, at whose name,

"...God elevated... to the place of highest honor and gave him the name above all other names,that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father." Phillipians 2:9-11

Through Christ's power IN us as Christians, His authority reigns out of us, especially through the words of Holy Scripture. Holy Scripture, the Word of God, that even Jesus himself used when in warfare with the enemy;

"Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted there by the devil. For forty days and forty nights he fasted and became very hungry. During that time the devil came and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become loaves of bread.” But Jesus told him, “No! The Scriptures say,‘People do not live by bread alone,
but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” Then the devil took him to the holy city, Jerusalem, to the highest point of the Temple, and said, “If you are the Son of God, jump off! For the Scriptures say, ‘He will order his angels to protect you. And they will hold you up with their hands so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.’” Jesus responded, “The Scriptures also say, ‘You must not test the Lord your God.’” Next the devil took him to the peak of a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory. “I will give it all to you,” he said, “if you will kneel down and worship me.” “Get out of here, Satan,” Jesus told him. “For the Scriptures say,‘You must worship the Lord your God
and serve only him.’” Then the devil went away, and angels came and took care of Jesus."Mathew 4:1-11

(Note to reader: Just a reminder that this is SPIRITUAL warfare, and not FLESH warfare, as Ephesians 6:12 states, "For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places." This is to reiterate and to warn that 'verbal' use of Holy Scripture towards another human as 'warfare' can be a manipulation of the Word of God (a form of witch craft), as spoken scripture has MORE to do with the SPIRIT behind it, and not the religious legalistic abuse of the TRUTH. Be careful and seek for wisdom when being led by the Word of God, as it's use and intent is Holy, and not for self gratification and power.)

Part 2 Interpretation:
The beautiful resort place this battle takes place in symbolizes the 'world' and the distractions within; noted by all the decor, and 'resortness' of it. We must remember we are in a fallen world and the devil, desiring to 'be like God,' has also chosen this fallen earth as a place to roam and inhabit, and even give false authority over, desiring to even 'tempt Jesus' with all the Kingdoms of the earth (as noted in the above Ch.4 Mathew scripture), that are truly NOT his to give. Also important, is to not be distracted by the comforts of this life that may cause us to slumber. As lovely as they seem, they are 'faux.' And as I tend to call it, a 'paper mache' world, that has a false facade, whose comforts and 'goodness' only give a WHISPER towards Heavens realities. And in fact, whose cheap and sheer exterior, can be poked, broken through, knocked down, and ignited in flames, as it's truly a fallen world. There will be a time when we will receive TRUE comforts when we are in Heaven with our Lord, and when our New earth and Heaven will be revealed.

"Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the old heaven and the old earth had disappeared. And the sea was also gone. And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven like a bride beautifully dressed for her husband."Revelation 21:1-2

“Look! I am creating new heavens and a new earth,and no one will even think about the old ones anymore." Isaiah 65:17

I realize the next part of this scene, in part 2 of the dream, where we as Christians pick up the wooden spikes of wood to stab into the faces of the demons might make some of you uncomfortable, possibly very uncomfortable. But it's important to remember that WAR is uncomfortable. It's not pretty. If you are unsure of why war/battles/and the like are needed, or why God has allowed them, then it's important for you to study the Old Testament and to get acquainted with the book of Revelations in the New Testament. An example from the Old Testament is Jael, from the book of Judges,

“Most blessed among women is Jael,
the wife of Heber the Kenite.
May she be blessed above all women who live in tents.
Sisera asked for water,
and she gave him milk.
In a bowl fit for nobles,
she brought him yogurt.
Then with her left hand she reached for a tent peg,
and with her right hand for the workman’s hammer.
She struck Sisera with the hammer, crushing his head.
With a shattering blow, she pierced his temples.
He sank, he fell,
he lay still at her feet.
And where he sank,
there he died." Judges 5:24-27

More importantly, think of the image of Christ's return as noted in the book of Revelations from the New Testament (where the battle is spiritual),

"He held seven stars in his right hand, and a sharp two-edged sword came from his mouth. And his face was like the sun in all its brilliance." Revelations 1:16

"Repent of your sin, or I will come to you suddenly and fight against them with the sword of my mouth." Revelations 2:16

"Their entire army was killed by the sharp sword that came from the mouth of the one riding the white horse. And the vultures all gorged themselves on the dead bodies." Revelation 19:21

"From his mouth came a sharp sword to strike down the nations. He will rule them with an iron rod. He will release the fierce wrath of God, the Almighty, like juice flowing from a winepress." Revelation 19:15

And in Hebrews 4:12 we find the deeper meaning of the 'sword', "For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."

*(Also noted about this specific weapon used; it was organic and raw in it's form, and made of brown wood (wood: eternal, building spiritual things, growth, structure, strength, and brown: born again, repented, new life, renewed mind)......which tends to make me think about our beginnning use of prayer and knowledge of the Word when new Christians....although I'd been saved for 5-6yrs at the time of this dream, I was still growing in the Word, learning the Word, and learning to be Holy Spirit led in prayer, and holding this 'weapon' was awkward....yet, it was STILL powerful....(BTW- I STILL AM ever growing and learning ;D ).....God only desires a ready vessel with a willing heart and spirit, not OUR knowledge, nor OUR works....as only HIS are eternal.)

Part 3 Interpretation:
"Revealing the enemy"... the part about the devil taking on a role himself on earth (not his only role, this was just the only one the Lord revealed in this particular dream), as that slinky woman in the food court enticing the man...someone spoke to me about this part of the dream stating that they believed it to be 'pornography' on the internet (if you remember, the man in the food court was sitting by himself at a table 'conversing/interacting' w/an unseen woman; possible pornography on a laptop)...that disturbs me...that the enemy HIMSELF would use it as a tool to 'recruit his army'...basically....I powerful tool (note: I personally believe the internet is a useful tool, we only need to be wise in how we handle it, like all freedoms). There are many reasons why I abhore sexual sin, but the one that alerts me in this particular element, is the secrecy of it...the shame, the seclusion, the isolation, the hiddeness of it to every individual involved within it...sin births secrecy, secrecy births shame, shame births deception, deceptions births fall...right into the hands of the enemy.

(And the man in the food court 'conversing with this seductive and charming, flattering woman' (that the enemy is disguised as), represents an average middle aged male. Unhappy, possibly discontented with life, lonely, and isolated....(note: not that someone of a different age/race/gender can't fall into sin on the internet, but that possibly the greatest recruitment right now is that demographic).

And why is the devil recruiting an army? And can they really be human?

"When the thousand years are over, Satan will be released from his prison and will go out to deceive the nations in the four corners of the earth—Gog and Magog—and to gather them for battle. In number they are like the sand on the seashore. They marched across the breadth of the earth and surrounded the camp of God’s people, the city he loves." Revelations 20:7-9

"And the dragon was enraged with the woman, and he went to make war with the rest of her offspring, who keep the commandments of God and have the testimony of Jesus Christ." Revelations 12:17

Part 4 Interpretation:
What was interesting during the beginning part of this scene, was that we were all 'individually' fighting at this point, basically like real life. Yes, we are a BODY of believers, APART of the Body of Christ, who at times come together CORPORATELY or rather, PHYSICALLY for worship, teaching, and prayer, but most often, our walks with the Lord are INDIVIDUAL and we all have individual callings, and therefor battle individually as well, withIN the Body of Christ (just as this part of the dream revealed some of MY carnal fear and insecurities with spiritual battles...also important to mention, that I am NOT to battle satan one on one like I had first believed the Lord had called me to do in the dream when I ran at satan with my spear...when in REALITY, (as was revealed) the Lord Himself, and the angelic presence covering all of our sides and backs are who help us alongside this battle of life, including the fight with darkness...it is not OUR fight, but the Lords, and we are His beloved servants that are ONLY called to be obedient to our callings and stations in this life, as we love our Heavenly Father and walk hand in hand with our Lord. Take heart, beloved! We are NOT to fear, for the battle is the LORDS.)

HOWEVER-also noted at the END of this scene, is that "the group size had dwindled down a bit." Is this because we were TOO isolated in our fighting? Did some of us 'stray' too far and therfor were unprotected, like a sheep who strays from the pasture? Or, as end times scripture mentions,

"Later, Jesus sat on the Mount of Olives. His disciples came to him privately and said, “Tell us, when will all this happen? What sign will signal your return and the end of the world?” Jesus told them, “Don’t let anyone mislead you, for many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah.’ They will deceive many. And you will hear of wars and threats of wars, but don’t panic. Yes, these things must take place, but the end won’t follow immediately. Nation will go to war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in many parts of the world. But all this is only the first of the birth pains, with more to come. Then you will be arrested, persecuted, and killed. You will be hated all over the world because you are my followers. And many will turn away from me and betray and hate each other. And many false prophets will appear and will deceive many people. Sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold. But the one who endures to the end will be saved." Mathew 24:3-13

Also noted about the enemies character; the devil was coy, charming, fast, quick-witted....very disarming to Christians who think of evil as single faceted. It's important to be aware of the enemies favorite game of 'smoke and mirrors,' to try and be multi-faceted like our God. But his is counterfit...a deception...not the REAL thing. By being polite, he threw Christians off because we weren't expecting it and we didn't want to 'offend'... so we answered his questions, we conversed...we allowed him to share his thoughts with us-just like many of us do when under condemnation, or when distracted from the TRUTH. Allowing him a 'foothold' to distract us during the battle, and at times, even becoming confused at to what we were even doing here...and at other times, believing we were working together as a team WITH the enemy...as the 'let US move this dressor over here to make more room' talk with the enemy revealed....so important to always remember we are IN a battle. Not in the future, NOW!

DO NOT be distracted by the enemy's covering of deceptive charm and allure...this can be seen in many things throughout history and the world...i.e., religions that resemble our own, but are NOT fully biblical. That is...things that 'look good,' 'feel right,' and 'SEEM biblical,' but when in fact held next to the letter of the Law....held up against Holy scripture, it doesn't match. The character of a belief NOT matching the character of our God. Who IS who He says He is, Who can DO what He says He can do, and Who IS the Great 'I AM.'

Not believing every word of the bible to be God ordained and breathed as 100% truth...not 99%, etc., (leaving room for your own 'feel good' beliefs-allows the enemy to come alongside of the Lord's truth...'to be like God.' )...should be an alert to you that something if OFF. Not all of the enemy's plans are revealed to us, but thankfully-they are to the Lord. The enemy loves to disguise himself as a 'gentleman.' He also disguises this allure among philosophy, liberalism (sounds right and good), and many other things. The RED FLAG you should receive by this, is that when something 'sounds like truth and good' but is NOT 100% biblical, then beware of the enemies schemes 'to be like God.' His whole reason from being thrown down from Heaven by God.

And He(Jesus) said to them, “I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven." Luke 10:18

"And I saw an angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the Abyss and holding in his hand a great chain. He seized the dragon, that ancient serpent, who is the devil, or Satan, and bound him for a thousand years. He threw him into the Abyss, and locked and sealed it over him, to keep him from deceiving the nations anymore until the thousand years were ended. After that, he must be set free for a short time." Revelations 20:1-3

Part 5, Interpretation:

The devil's army....important to remember that not just demons encamp his army-but, humans. And although anyone at any age can be recruited into his army, in this particular dream the Lord spoke about this specific generation now, in their youth (and with this dream taking place New Year's Eve night, 2004, that would make this group of youth all in their 20's by 2014 if the date of this dream was to be taken literally at face value)...not saying that I believe it to be only 'this generation,' it might just be symbolic, that throughout all generations-this is the time our core thinking/believing truly takes root. Beginning around this age, (10-14) young adults, venturing out into adulthood... begin to seperate from their parents thinking and/or beliefs and grab onto something as their own. It is essential that we pray for and are aware of our youth and chldren.

Also noted in part 5...as we 'practiced' our weapons (spending time with the Lord, studying scripture, memorizing it, praying it out loud, worshipping our Lord, etc.) we are REFINING them....I find it interesting that my weapon was a long thin silver spear by the end of this dream instead of the big heavy wooden spear I began with. I have to confess, that I have to DAILY look up scripture to get it's full wording because I struggle with memorization of it. I get 'bits and pieces' but never the full lot. At first I was frustrated with this, as the long wooden 'unrefined' fat splinter spear held clumsily in my hands to attack the enemy, feels 'at home' for me-lol! HOWEVER...God is good! It looks like as time proceeds, and as I continue to walk with the Lord and allow Him to refine me, my weapon becomes the long thin spear that is shot with amazing speed and accuracy (that is, 'scripture' is shot out with amazing speed and accuracy...and 'silver' means; redemption, knowledge of God, and revelation)...

So be encouraged, and keep close to the Lord daily and nightly, as he continues to refine you!

I will leave you with this brothers and sisters:

The Armor of God

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints."

EPHESIANS 6:10-18

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2010-03-20T21:39:00.000-07:00

Do not slumber...do not sleep...be awakened to the battle we are in...arise Church, arise! May God's FURIOUS LOVE for you, empower you with His strength to share His FURIOUS LOVE for the world around you.

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Visable & Invisable

2009-01-27T15:32:00.000-08:00

I thought I would start out with somewhat of an explanation of what I do believe in. As a follower of Christ, I came to believe in the Lord Jesus as my savior. That I was a sinner and I needed a redeemer. Believing such, has also led me into another world, different from the world I was brought up in prior to this belief. That world being the INVISABLE world. I was aware of the VISABLE world, and was somewhat comfortable there, but always knew deep down, that there was something deeper, something more significant than what I was truly seeing...and living...this new world of the INVISABLE....truly opened doors and shed LIGHT on the many truths of God's...that would otherwise have been left unanswered, unopened, and deceiving.

You may be a follower of Christ, or you may be searching. Whatever you may be, you MUST be aware of both of the realms that surround us of the visable and the invisable, because that is the world we live in. Do NOT be deceived, do NOT be afraid, for the Lord is GOOD, His burden is light and His yoke is easy. You just have to step out in faith and trust Him. Do NOT be afraid of the enemy, for God has already conquered Him. I only speak of the enemy so that you would be aware of his schemes and you would NOT be deceived in this life, as your salvation and your station in this world as a warrior of the Lord our God, depends on it.

"The forces that determine history fall into two categories: visible and invisable. It is the interplay of these two realms that determines the course of history. As long as we confine our attention to things that are visable and material, we will find ourselves confronted from time to time by events and situations that we cannot fully explain or control.

To the visable realm belong all the normal objects and events of the material universe. We are familiar with this realm and feel at home in it, even though events often do not follow the course we would wish. For many people, the limits of their awareness do not extend further. Yet the Bible opens a door to another, invisable realm, which is not material, but spiritual. The forces at work in this realm exercise a continuous and decisive influence on events in the visible realm.

In 2 Corinthians 4:17-18 Paul delineates these two realms: For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

The things that belong to the visible realm are transitory and impermanent (note from me: even it's truths and facts). It is only in the invisable realm that we can find true and abiding reality. It is in this realm, too, that we discover the forces that will ultimately shape our destiny, even in the visable realm. Paul makes it clear that success in life depends upon being able to apprehend and relate to that which is invisable and spiritual." From the book, 'Blessing or Curse,You Can Choose,' by author Derek Prince.

Something to ponder and pray about!

A Fresh Release

2009-01-27T15:08:00.000-08:00

I've been called, encouraged, and released once again by the Lord, and through others, to share some more dreams given to me by the Lord, in order to: REVEAL THE TRUTH of the DEPTHS of DARKNESS of the ENEMY to His children, so that, they would be ready and NOT disarmed at ALL times for battle. In other words...that God's children would be filled with discernment over the enemy's plans in ALL things. That they would KNOW God THROUGH relationship and His WORD.

That we would, "Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints." Ephesians 6:11-18

I will be praying about the order and release of these dreams and visions. So please check back in every now and then as they come as this might take time...or maybe not! For I definately feel the urgency from the Lord's spirit to share.
God Bless!

A 'Whale' of a Dream;)

2008-09-18T13:59:00.000-07:00

Premace: I had this dream a month ago about a christian I know who is delving deeper and deeper in their relationship with the Lord this past season...or should I say...the Lord is drawing them deeper and deeper...and they are going in...with arms open wide and willing.

The evening before this dream, I was watching a PBS special. It was about seals on the beach, etc., and one of the scenes depicted their predator, the Orka (or 'Killer whale'). In this scene...you see this little seal walking along the edge of the water, and then SWOOSH, out of nowhere, this Orka literally jumps out of the ocean and onto the shore and eats it. My husband and I were both shocked at the scene and unprepared for it as we're used to Orka's being portrayed as friendly 'Shamu's'. We'd almost forgotten that they're carnivores. End of scene.

Dream: That night I had a dream where I was standing up at the top of a sand dune looking down at the ocean's edge that was about 50 yards away. I saw this 'person' walking along the edge of the water. Out of no where, this huge orka jumps out of the ocean...and lands beside this person (half of the whale in the ocean, half on shore). I remember feeling instant panick and alarm, wanting to yell out to the person to get out of the way...that orkas are carnivores. This person, who was somewhat amazed, did NOT back away...but instead, JUMPED up onto the whale...in fact...jumped onto the MOUTH of the whale.

Instead of being fearful of this creature, this person saw it not as a threat, but as the beautiful creation from God, that it was. The whale then began to toss the person in the air, like a toy. I remember thinking..okay, this is it...but, that's all the whale did. Toss, or rather 'play'. This person was laughing with joy about it and thought it was fun. Then the whale did one last toss and flipped the person, head first into the wet sand. It was almost 'cartoonish' in nature...with head buried like an ostrich and arms and legs flailing up in the air. Finally, the person's head emerged from the sand...and they were still laughing! At that moment, I found myself saying aloud (in the dream to myself) the word, 'FAITH.'

Next, the person stood up and jumped right back on top of the whale and turned around and faced the ocean, while standing on the whale's head. They then 'jumped' and slid down the back of the whale and 'flipped' off of the tail that was pointing upward and landed on their hands and knees in the shallow water to the left of the whale. At this moment, I thought, "Oh, no...it's going to roll on top of them and squish/drown them to death!" As I was thinking this, the whale, did in fact, start to roll over...but I noticed something. The whale's tail was still arched upwards, and as it rolled over the person it created an arc over them instead...and rolled over them without even touching them. At this moment, the word 'GRACE' came out of my mouth. End of dream.

Interpretation: The whale; I think of the hugest mammal on earth w/nursing babes, magnificient, wonderous, both a gentle friend and a predator...black and white...light and darkness...possibly an obstacle/trial...whether that's adventure from a higher calling from God that could either be reverred or feared, or both...a time for needed discernment.

By the person 'jumping onto' this whale...it's obviously noted that they are not fearful like expected, but full of awe and amazement of it...and if anything...EXCITED...landing w/their 'head in the sand'....(sand; innocence of a child, carefree, playful, multitude, plentiful...also speaks of the many generations)...maybe in naivity of the trial, or in HOW they choose to go forward with this encounter.

And by FAITH...they are kept from harm because of their 'perception' of the 'predator.' By their FAITH of action (jumping)....they are protected...almost 'conquering' of it...or of what's to come.

The 'jump' down the back of the whale...FACING the Ocean (Humanity/World; nations, people, generations, fast progress)....with determination, fearlessness, and ready! No matter what comes. The 'flip' at the end...maybe the end of the ride...maybe an obstacle along the way...landing on their hands and knees (both knees, being both positive and negative in regards to 'submission'...right knee; respect, worship, obedience, recognition of authority, humbling of heart. And left knee; idolatry, stubborness, unyeilding, weakness)...this person might possibly be going through all of these ranges of emotion and growth with this new trial)...landing in the shallow water (water; purification, cleansing, renewal, flow of the Holy Spirit, power, wisdom). And by God's GRACE they are 'covered/protected' when the 'predator' rolls over them.

By FAITH, you are saved.

And God's GRACE is sufficient enough for thee.

2 Corinthians 12:9
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Psalm 116:6
The Lord protects those of childlike faith; I was facing death, and he saved me.

1 John 5:4
For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith.

Luke 7:50
And Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”

Mark 10:14
When Jesus saw what was happening, he was angry with his disciples. He said to them, “Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to those who are like these children.

It's amazing what can happen when we 'step out' in FAITH for God...He meets us. And with such FAITH, His GRACE 'covers us' in ALL we do...awesome!

Is Contentment Possible

2008-09-08T07:06:00.000-07:00

I came across this in my morning bible study...it reminded me about the dream I just wrote about..."A Foot in Both Worlds." As did the Philippians scripture I posted on the left.

"The problem with contentment, American-style, is that it denies our human limitations. We are encouraged to admire the supposedly 'self-made' man or woman. We are taught to value self-sufficiency. And we assume that money will insulate us from chance, protect us from 'the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune'-maybe even from death; "In contrast, the Apostle Paul claims he acheived contentment "in any and all circumstances." Paul's ideal of contentment is truer to life. We didn't create ourseves and we can't save ourselves from death.

In the last two chapters of Phillipians, Paul describes a type of contentment that isn't based on 'self-sufficiency.' It comes in GRATEFUL acceptance of his DEPENDENCE on God and the sharing in the gifts offered by others. His contentment doesn't bring the absence of suffering: it brings the enablement to continue in service to the Kingdom of God. Paul gave himself to something bigger and greater than himself. His life had purpose and significance beyond itself. He was not free of worry, pain or limitations, but he was CONTENT. Both JOY and SUFFERING come from beyond us and are bigger than us. Both say we are dependent and can never be complete in ourselves, that salvation and wholeness come only when we can admit we aren't self-made little gods. It takes courage NOT to pursue contentment American-style"

Author: Rodney Clapp

C.S. Lewis

2008-09-06T15:17:00.000-07:00

"In Christianity God is not a static thing - not even a person - but a dynamic, pulsating activity, a life, almost a kind of drama. Almost, if you will not think me irreverent, a kind of dance. The union between the Father and the Son is such a live concrete thing that this union itself is also a Person...What grows out of the joint life of the Father and Son is a real Person, is in fact the Third of the three Persons who are God.This third Person is called, in technical language, the Holy Ghost or the 'spirit' of God. Do not be worried or surprised if you find it (or Him) rather vaguer or more shadowy in your mind than the other two. I think there is a reason why that must be so. In the Christian life you are not usually looking at Him. He is always acting through you. If you think of the Father as something 'out there,' in front of you, and of the Son as someone standing at your side, helping you to pray, trying to turn you into another son, then you have to think of the third Person as something inside you, or behind you. Perhaps some people might find it easier to begin with the third Person and work backwards. God is love, and that love works through men-especially through the whole community of Christians. But this spirit of love is, from all eternity, a love going on between the Father and the Son.And now, what does it all matter? It matters more than anything else in the world. The whole dance, or drama, or pattern of this three-Personal life is to be played out in each one of us: or (putting it the other way round) each one of us has got to enter that pattern, take his place in that dance. There is no other way to the happiness for which we were made. Good things as well as bad, you know, are caught by a kind of infection. If you want to get warm you must stand near the fire: if you want to be wet you must get into the water. If you want joy, power, peace, eternal life, you must get close to, or even into, the thing that has them. They are not a sort of prize which God could, if He chose, just hand out to anyone. They are a great fountain of energy and beauty spurting up at the very centre of reality. If you are close to it, the spray will wet you: if you are not, you will remain dry. Once a man is united to God, how could he not live forever? " C.S. Lewis

A Foot in Both Worlds

2008-09-05T20:23:00.000-07:00

Preface: I had been walking with the Lord for almost 2yrs. However, I was still in a constant struggle with sin and about 'fully' letting go of this world and clinging on and trusting the Lord as to what He had in store for me as His child. I was caught up in the belief (although I might not have confessed it out loud to others around me..or to myself) that 'christianity' was dull, boring, and the 'nunnery' I had always thought it to be. However, I saw the 'wisdom' in it and the 'safety' it had brought to my corrupt life since my salvation, and was grateful for it...so grateful in fact, I was willing to CLING onto this boring 'happyville' life of christianity I believed it to be...because it was still INFINITLY better than where I had come from.

However...the 'world' still seemed so enticing and full of excitement...and being so young, I felt that I still had so much life to experience and enjoy BEFORE I stepped into this Christian walk fully. Deep down inside of me, I believed that this walk with the Lord was stealing that away, and it is in fact, as we are to DIE to the things of this world, HOWEVER, I was deceived in what that actually meant. I felt that I was giving all 'good' things up...and as much as I thought I was ready and willing to do so for the Lord...I didn't...as my actions in my life and the deep yearnings in my heart still revealed.

Dream: I find myself standing in what seems like an office building. There are no desks, cubicles, etc., but the wall I am facing has 2 elevators with 'fake' plants outside of them as 'decor.' There is a line of people standing and waiting for one elevator...and I am at the end of this line...of about 80-100 people. All of the people in this line are wearing gray 'business suits', male and female alike. Just skirts and 'added' blouses for the women. They all seem to be carrying brief cases too...and they seem to be very content and happy....standing forward to the elevator, waiting their turn, chatting in murmurs...I notice I am at the end of this line.

I then look over to the other elevator and notice that no one is in line for it. The doors to this elevator are open, but there is a yellow plastic CAUTION tape draped across the opening, as if it is broken or being fixed for repairs. I walk over to it out of curiosity to see inside. When I look inside the elevator, I see all of these buckets of paint. The lids are open and there is every color of the rainbow out on display in them. They are so vibrant and deep in color! The paint cans are full and glistening and calling my name (I love colors!). I then notice a paint brush on the floor. I think..."hmmm...if I only reach in under the tape and grab the brush, I can paint a little, to see what it looks like, and still be safely outside of the elevator." It still hasn't been made clear to me what is wrong with the elevator...(and I must confess here, that this has always been a fear of mine...being in an elevator and having it 'break' and drop to the floor, smashing me in a gazillion pieces..I know chances are rare..still :). So anyways...I reach in under the tape to grab ahold of the brush, when I suddenly lose my balance and have to catch myself with a foot landing inside of the elevator. At first, I am pretty shaken up about this and stand still seeing if the elevator will 'drop'...it doesn't even move. So, I don't waste any time and dip my brush into the red, orange, yellow, green, blue, and purple and start brushing away all over the walls. The colors are soooo beautiful! I can't believe it!

Sometime during all this painting, (I have become so absorbed into the beauty of the colors and the fun of it all that I havn't noticed) I have stepped ALL the way into this elevator. As soon as I realize this, I hear a mechanical woman's voice on the loud speaker in the elevator saying, "WARNING WARNING...DROPPING TO THE GARBAGE FURNACE." And before I know it, the doors slam shut ansd SWOOSH...that's right...the elevator is dropping full-speed downwards. I can literally feel my stomach fly up into my mouth as gravity is taking hold.

During this fall and my utter loss of balance and self, I am sliding all around in the elevator. Across all the walls and ceiling that are now covered in all that paint. The paints are slippery and mixing colors...and are becomng an ugly brown gray mass of gunk. I am full-on panicking and thinking of how to 'save' myself. I think..."if I can just get my footing and 'jump' as the elevator lands, then I will take some of the impact away." As I am thinking this, all of the walls start coming in on me. Ceiling, floor, sides, squeezing closer to my body... and the elevator is turning in all sorts of directions during this free-fall...I realize then, that I am in a sticky, ugly, coffin. There is no footing, no chance to make the impact less...I scream out, "Jesus! Jesus!"

At this moment, I hear the voice of God (or possibly His Spirit) speaking to me. He is calm and sympathetic of my situation. He say's to me..."I gave you the choice of elevators...and although you are my child and you will be with me at the end...I can not take away the pain that you will feel from this fall." I am crying bitter sweet tears..tears of thankfulness...mixed w/remorse, fear, and dread of about what is about to take place....

The next thing I know, I am in outer space (coffin, paint...all gone) flying at what feels like the speed of light, with light rays all around me, and then, for just a moment, it feels 'slow-motion like'...it is silent, and there are millions of stars and galaxies all around me...I wake up.

Interpretation: As soon as I woke up from that dream 10 yrs ago...it was like a sock in the stomach to me, as an awakening, as to where I was going with my walk with the Lord. As well as a light shining in on all of the lies and deceptions I had been believing from the enemy.

The 'boring gray office building' was what my perception of the 'world/work of Christianity' was. 'Gray' in the (-) can mean; unclear, vague, deception, false doctrine or teaching. 'The boring people in gray business suits and briefcases; Christians. The color gray in this dream was basically symbolizing my belief of deception that Christianity was 'dull.' The 'happyville' patrons were easily abiding by the rules and waiting for the elevator that was 'working.' That elevator symbolizing 'the way'. The elevator with the caution tape across it was 'the world' into which God gives us free choice to take. What I find interesting here is that...the doors are opened, signifying 'free-will', but..there IS a CAUTION tape...that was my warning. You might think it a 'small' warning...but, if you really saw an open elevator with a yellow caution tape across the entrance...would you venture into it?

The paint and all the colors signified all the enticement that the world has to offer, everything I felt I was missing out on as a Christian. When we as Christians 'compromise' and 'reach in' to what the world has to offer...we risk the chance of a 'fall.' Even after I had fallen in w/one foot. You'll notice that I believed in a false sense of security...that I could have one foot in the Kingdom of God, and one in the world...to 'have my cake and eat it too,' so to speak. That I could 'easily jump out' if I needed to. The thing is, once we fall for the things of this world, and become numb to right and wrong, or have the lines blurred...we compromise. Our discernment becomes darkened...and we don't tend to notice and before we know it, we are drawn in, and both feet are in, and the light of truth is lost. I had fallen for a trap. I fell in and was lost (at least, this was the warning the Lord was giving me BEFORE it happened in my actual life). What is interesting here is that all the beauty I had seen in those paints (the enticement of the world and what it has to offer) turned to a pukey brown-gray glop (brown: humanism, gray: deception). Basically, the reality of it's ugliness revealed. The elevator going down (backslidden), the elevator turning into a coffin (death), and the garbage furnace I was headed for...Hell.

I find it extremely interesting here, that God said I would still be saved and with Him. My perception thus far tends for me to interpret it as; that by the grace of God, and His son Jesus' blood that was shed on the cross for all of our sins, and by my salvation (confession of sins and knowledge of need for forgiveness and faith in Jesus as God's son, and our salvation) I was 'pardoned' and taken in as a child of God. However, I still had to reap what I sowed on this earth...meaning...the path of this world leads to pain, suffering, and death. The path of this world isn't fruitful. I am so grateful to have been awakened to what I could have missed out on.

The TRUE DECEPTION of my 'old perception' was that the Kingdom of God was boring and that the world was exciting! LIES! The longer I've walked w/the Lord, the more I find each and every day, (moment)! That this world is kind of like...the 'strip' in Vegas...or a Hollywood movie set...all big and grand on the front, with bells, whistles, lights, music, and then you take a peek behind and see that there are just boards propping them up. Empty paper mache walls. An act. Or an old nasty dirty ally behind the building with someone handing out sheets of pornography (Vegas moment)...basically, full of utter horror fueled by our sin, and lack of knowledge/awareness of our dire need for HIM, Jesus Christ, the Atonement for all.

The creator of this universe, of all creation, of colors, of joy, of laughter, of love...knows EXCITEMENT...He created it! And His kingdom, truly is that! EVEN here on earth...we don't have to wait until heaven. I am so grateful to God for awakening me that night and taking me even deeper in my walk and relationship with Him. Every day is exciting to see His Kingdom growing and MOVING, to be apart of it. :) I'm soooo thankful for His mercy and love to 'awaken' me from the direction I was going, BEFORE I stepped fully into that elevator, and that I didn't miss another second here on earth of 'not getting' what this whole Christianity thing is about!